Alex's Dorm

[alex]

“Well you don’t have to look pretty for me, just for future reference,” he said with a smirk, “Ah.. The million dollar question,” he chuckled, “I didn’t say I don’t like doing it, what guy doesn’t like sex,” that probably wasn’t the best explanation, “Ok, well I like sex, and I’m not gonna lie, I said I don’t like girls that have sex with me just because they feel bad for me, that’s kind of dumb, but since you asked, I don’t really believe in all that lovey stuff, it seems like a bunch of bullshit to me.”

Honestly he didn’t care what anyone said, high school relationships never worked out, in his opinion, what was the point of being in a relationship with someone, when it was all based on lies, fake optimism, and sex. Honestly that seemed like a bunch of bullshit to him, why stay with one person when you could be with a bunch of different ones, and maybe this was where he turned into a jerk, and she left, but he didn’t care. She’d asked why.

[Aliana Marie Rice]

"Future reference?" Aliana smirked slightly, leaning up and resting her chin on her palm, "Why, you plan on doing this again?"

When he began to explain how he didn't believe in love, Aliana squinted at him, trying to understand what he was saying with judging. "Well, lucky for you," she slid a finger down one of his arms, "this isn't love, or a relationship," she shook her head, "there's no need to worry about that bullshit." Honest to god, Aliana couldn't barely remember the last time she'd had a boyfriend, it had been so long. The last guy she ever chased after shot her down, and she sort of just kept it on neutral for the passed couple of years... not that she really even wanted one. Boys held her back, and Aliana hated to be held back.

"I'm not gonna disagree with you on the love thing, I mean, half the 'love' I see around here only exists because people fucked and got tied down with babies," Aliana snarled at the idea, "but, something had to have happened to make you think that way."

[alex]

“Maybe,” at the moment that seemed like the right thing to say, although he was sure that this girl didn’t mean anything to him, he could see being friends with her, she was smart, and seemed like a no bullshit type of person, which was the type of person he generally found himself being friends with. “Well I’m glad,” he said with a smirk, he didn’t think he would last in a relationship, “I wouldn’t be good at it anyway,” he would probably be the guy who cheated on her a thousand times and expected her to take him back. It was easier to be single.

“Oh yeah that I agree with, I don’t know what I would do with a kid in high school, but my dad would probably hurt me if I got someone pregnant.” He laughed, he was telling the truth, his dad would probably hurt him if he got a girl pregnant, and then what would he do? Alex sort of ignored her last question not wanting to admit that the reason that he didn’t believe in love was that he didn’t think anyone could ever love him, who would love him when he couldn’t see? Or when he wasted his life away trying to be an artist when he clearly couldn’t, “Nah it’s just easier for me to be single, I don’t think people would want to be in a relationship with me anyway, I just think it’s stupid.” He shrugged.

[Aliana Marie Rice]

"Relationships are a handful," Aliana shook her head, "waste of time if you ask me, high school should be the time we use to be young, ya know?" She wasn't thinking too much about them in relation to Alex, right now? All he seemed to be to her was another warm body and someone to talk to. Basically, a friend... which was something she didn't think she found in many people. Funny, considering they'd met in a chat room and she really thought she'd wanted to drop him the second they were done, but they were having a good talk. Sure, not many friends necessarily go through foreplay and then have conversations in their underwear together, but, you know... friends.

Aliana pursed her lips, "Hm, nah," she smiled, "I think if you can get girls in bed you can get girls any other way," she shrugged, "I mean, if you tried or wanted to, that is," Aliana sat up for a second, glancing around the room, curious as to where her clothes were -- then relaxing back and laying down again once she'd seen it, just to take note of where they were so she could get dressed later. "but, believe me, I get it. I'd hate to be tied down, right now, anyway. Too much work."

[alex]

“Yeah I get it,” he said, he agreed with her there, it was kind of stupid to have a relationship in high school when it was just going to end anyway, he just didn’t try. “Usually the girls I get in bed are not the ones want to be in a relationship with if you know what I mean.” The girls that put out right away didn’t generally have the greatest personality to be in a relationship with, or at least he thought so anyway,
“So you really think I could get a girl to be in a relationship with me huh? Well thanks for the vote of confidence, but I don’t like being tied down either.” He shrugged

“You know you seem like a cool person, we should hang out more,” He said, not exactly where that came from, she seemed like a cool person, and maybe they could be friends, even though what they were doing right now was not something that friends did. He thought it was a little bit weird that they had only met not so long ago, and were having a deep conversation.

[Aliana Marie Rice]

Aliana nodded in understanding, "True," she herself didn't know what had gotten into her in order to make that effort to find this guy's dorm. Maybe it was her dry spell? She was horny? And up 'til now, she still didn't even have sex... though she was alright with that, Alex was interesting to talk to, and in no way was she going to pass up someone remotely amusing to her at this school. She arrived planning on having casual, meaningless sex with a guy whose name she could care less about, yet she was still there.

"You seem pretty cool, too," she smiled, slyly, playing off the compliment, "I would've walked out ten minutes ago if I didn't think that you were worth any more of my time," she nodded. Aliana wasn't one to just hand out compliments like that, so she really meant it. She turned so she was laying on her side to face him, even if she knew he couldn't exactly see her that well, "So, what's this condition that you have?" she asked, "How'd you get it?"

[alex]

“It’s called Stargardt’s disease and I was born with it I guess,” He shrugged, “I used to be able to see, until I was like twelve, and then my vision got all weird, and they tried to give me glasses to fix it but they didn’t help anything, but it’s kinda getting worse because I used to be able to see stuff, like… A year ago I probably could have known what you looked like, sort of… but unless you want me like feeling up your face… That sounds stupid,” he chuckled.

“Honestly, it kind of sucks to not be able to see for shit, it kind of fucked up everything that I had going on with my life,” He felt like he was getting too deep into this for a girl he just met, but he figured if he could have sex with a stranger then why not tell them everything, it didn’t seem like she was going to tell the whole world anyway. “I mean, I’m gonna be real blind—and I hate using that word because It scares me—blind someday, probably soon actually,” he paused, what was he even talking about, “Well you probably didn’t need to know all that, but yeah.” He decided he was going to stop talking after that she didn’t need to know his entire life right then.

[Aliana Marie Rice]

Aliana laughed slightly when he joked about feeling her face, but looked down once he began to elaborate on the story behind his vision. She'd figured it was something less serious, like maybe he was just one of those kids who always sat directly in front of the television when his mother told him not to -- not a disease that would cause him to become actually blind. Seeing the expression on his face, despite his glasses covering his eyes, she could tell that he was nervous about losing his sight completely. She certainly would be, too, had she been in his position.

"No, it's fine, really," Aliana tried to smile, leaning over and nuzzling her head against his shoulder, scrunching her eyebrows, fiddling her fingers as she looked for the right thing to say. She felt like she should comfort him, but she realized she'd only known this Alex kid for a day. What could she do?

"I'm..." she didn't want to tell him that she was sorry for him, because, even if she was, she didn't want him to feel like any less of a person than he was when she had been treating him like any other guy the entire time. So, he had a problem with his vision -- that didn't mean she should treat him like some helpless little puppy dog. "Well..." she scrunched her eyebrows, "what exactly did you have going on that can't happen anymore thanks to your... vision?"

[alex]

“You know I don’t talk to a lot of people like this.” He said sort of avoiding answering her question for a second, “It’s kind of weird to get all personal like this, but I kind of wanted to be an artist, which would be kind of hard for a blind person, ya’ know.” He didn’t tell a lot of people that because he sounded stupid saying it, and maybe like his dad said he should just find a real career that was actually possible.

“It’s kind of dumb,” He sounded dumb saying it, he didn’t want to tell her all that, but she had asked and he wasn’t going to tell her that he wasn’t going to tell her. The truth was that he didn’t have many friends, not many that he actually talked to, like that anyway, not many that he actually told this stuff to. He kind of kept to himself, when he wasn’t out getting pity sex from some other girl, maybe that was why he hesitated telling her, because she would feel bad for him like any other girl. Sometimes he didn’t mind girls that felt bad for him, because they were easier to get what he wanted. She didn’t seem like that kind of girl though.

[Aliana Marie Rice]

"It's not dumb," Aliana shook her head, insistently. Normally, she didn't really care about other peoples' problems, but, hey, she was the one taking the initiative here to be asking questions, anyhow. Wasn't her fault she was curious and Alex was interesting. She didn't normally think people wanted to befriend her, so the way that he was opening up to her was definitely a good sign. She sighed, "I mean, there's lots of blind people out there who've done things that, well..." Aliana rolled back onto her back, "things that people don't usually expect blind people to be able to do."

She sat up again, looking down at Alex for a second, smiling, "As long as you try," she leaned down, hovering over his face, smirking, "you can probably do just about anything, if you wanted." Aliana glanced down at his lips for a second, then slipped the sunglasses off his face, "How often do you have to wear these?"