Declan's dorm

[declan]

[declan]

"Come here," Declan and Justine were sitting on his bed watching some really crappy movie on Lifetime about some poor girl who fell in love with an inmate online. If there was anything worse than the acting, it was probably the thoughts running through Declan's mind. He'd been messing around with Cayle since the end of September, and he hadn't even tried to tell her.
How was he supposed to initiate that conversation? hey babe, how was your day? Mine was good, had a bologna, got an 87 on an algebra test, got blown by a dude, we watched a movie in Biology...want some Cheetos? Yeah. Not likely that one would go over well. Max would probably murder him, and it's not like he could even blame him. What he was doing was wrong. He was just too scared...or maybe too stupid...to break up with her.

He pulled her between his legs facing away from him and started playing with her hair. A small part of him thought by doing more "feminine" things she would eventually start thinking he was gay and break up with him. But that probably wasn't going to happen. He was positive that he wasn't straight, but he wasn't exactly a queen either.

"How come you never braid your hair?" He asked as he started to fishtail her long blonde locks. "I know you straighten it a lot, but I think you'd be beautiful with a braid every now and then. Of course...when are you never not beautiful?" He smiled even though she couldn't see it.
It wasn't that he didn't have feelings for Justine or that he didn't think she was pretty because he was with Cayle now. It wasn't like that. He still cared about her very much, and was still physically attracted to her. It was just that...things with Cayle were different. And even though he knew he was wrong to be with two people at once and only one of them knew, he still couldn't let her go.

[Justine Manson]

Justine laid inbetween his legs and rested her head against his chest. "I can't braid it. It's so long it's hard too. I normally get Thalia to braid it when I want it braided"she said smiling up at him. Turning her head she cupped his face in her hand and pressed her lips sweetly against.his."You're too sweet, you know that?"she said in response to his comments about her being pretty. She was so happy to be spending time with him.
He had been being distant lately not being around. But she knew it wasn't for any reason. He was most likely just super busy with school and other stuff. She knew for sure he wasn't cheating on her. He was way to sweet of a person for that. He always treated her like she was an angel. It was so adorable. She couldn't imagine he was with someone else.

Justine turned slightly so she could wrap her arms around his waist and get more comfortable. "You're the best boyfriend like... Ever. You know that right?"she said turning bright red as she spoke. "So, how was your day?"she asked grabbing his hand and lacing her fingers through his as she played with his fingers.

[declan]

"Oh, you know. Same ol' same ol'. Dylan and I drove into the city to grab dinner with dad after school," he would have added and I fucked Cayle in the shower but that seemed a little inappropriate.
He tied off her hair and smiled. "Very pretty," he kissed her nose and gave her hand a squeeze. "How was your day? It better have been awesome, or I'll fight whoever made it anything but," he winked at her.

Declan almost felt bad for being so...good, in a sense. Like a good boyfriend. Protective, sweet, funny, loving. Everything a boyfriend should be...and he knew that more now because he had the perfect boyfriend, and poor Justine had no idea.
But what was he supposed to do? Break her heart and tell her that while they were barely even touching, he was sucking face with a dude? It wasn't that he was upset that he and Justine never did anything. She probably would if he wanted to. But he didn't. Not with her. And not because she was unattractive, because she was. She was beautiful, sexy even. He just didn't want to be the one to take her innocence when things probably weren't going to work out between them, no matter how much he wished they could.

He brushed her bangs out of her face. "You know I'd never intentionally hurt you, right?" He said in a voice so soft it was almost a whisper. It didn't come off like he was hiding something, it was like he was just reassuring her that he was her prince charming.

I really wish I was. I wish I was good enough for her, or at least decent enough to tell her that I'm not...

[Justine Manson]

Justine smiled at him and hugged him tightly. "My day was good, it's even better now that i'm with you"she said. She turned around putting her legs on both sides of him so she was now sitting facing him. He was so good to her, she couldn't get over it. She got butterflies when ever he simply just touched her. It wasn't like the puppy dog love she felt either. She was crazy about him, and she wanted nothing more then to be with him.
She listened as he whispered to her about him saying he would never hurt her intentionally and smiled. She ran her fingers through his hair before placing her hand on his cheek. She stroked his cheek with her thumb and leaned down and pressed her lips against his.

"I know you wouldn't hurt me, baby"Justine said wrapping her arms around his neck hugging him. "You're perfect"she whispered as she gave him a sweet kiss on his lips. She smiled bit his bottom lip a little. After doing so, she slipped her tongue into his mouth and knotted one of her hands in his hair, she kept her other hand on the back of his neck.

Justine and Declan haven't really gone to far. They've gone to second base at the most, and that was just him under her shirt barely. Not that she was bothered that they haven't gone further because she's only had sex with two other people. She just wondered why he hadn't even acted as if he wanted to go further. She kind of wanted to go further. She definitely wouldn't mind having sex with Declan. So she figured why not go for it. She ran her hand that was behind his neck down his chest stopping at the hem of his shirt and played with it.

[declan]

Declan pulled away when Justine started to take his shirt off. He took her hands and held them, "Baby...I don't know where you're going with this, but...are you sure?"
As far as he knew, she was a virgin, and he certainly wasn't. He'd been with two girls and now Cayle, so he knew what he was doing there. But he didn't want to sleep with Justine knowing that the chances of them lasting were almost zero. He knew eventually he was going to have to tell her, and if she didn't dump him, he'd have to break up with her for Cayle. He was going to end up picking Cayle, as much as he cared about Justine, it would always be Cayle. It always had, and he'd never admitted to it until now.

He gave her a sad smile, because there was just no way she could know what was going through his mind right now. She probably just thought that he didn't want her wen it wasn't that at all. He wanted her. He did. She was beautiful, had such a pretty little body, was really flexible to his knowledge... he sighed.
"Justine..." he bit his lip and leaned forward to kiss her. What would Cayle think? Would he be mad? He knew he was with Justine, but he also knew that they hadn't been intimate. He was very understanding, but Declan knew he was a fool to believe that Cayle would be okay with him sleeping with the both of them. His feelings would be hurt.
Of course, that was probably nothing compared to how Justine was going to feel when she found out. She'd probably think she turned a straight man gay and think she was unattractive or something stupid like that. He'd probably ruin her self-esteem, and the thought of that was almost enough to kill his boner for her right now. Almost.

[Justine Manson]

Justine looked at him when he grabbed her hands stopping him. "I-"she stopped herself mid-sentence and looked down at her hands which were in his. Did he not want to have sex with her? Was she not sexually attractive? "I'm sure... But if you don't want to..."she slid herself off his lap and looked at the TV which was still playing their movie.
She had only had sex with two people, so she wasn't sure how good she would be if they did it. But she was almost certain she was decent enough to please him.. Unless he just didn't want.to have sex with her. Which there was a good chance he didnt.

When he leaned in to kids her, she have him a short sweet kids.back. "I'm not a virgin, Declan. If that's what you're thinking..."she paused for second a sighed. She knew he couldn't have been with someone else that was causing him to not want to sleep her. He would definitely not cheat. So maybe he just didn't like her in a sexually way and if that was the case then so be it. "If you don't want to have sex with me it's fine"she whispered looking up at him.

[declan]

Ooc: omg her thoughts make me feel sooooo bad!

Bic:

"No, no! I definitely want to have sex with you!" Declan sad too quickly and then caught himself. "It's just...I didn't want to push you too far. But if you want to..." he gave her a weak smile and leaned over to kiss her.
You would have to be absolutely crazy to not want Justine, even a gay man would still want her. And he would know. Not that he was gay, but still. He could see what it was like to be exactly one side instead of both.

Knowing that Justine wasn't a virgin was really comforting. He'd be an idiot to believe that it would be just sex, but at least she wouldn't mark him down as the one who took her virginity, and then was fucking a dude at the same time.
He continued to kiss her, deepening it the longer he pressed his mouth against hers. He tried with everything in him to push the thoughts of Cayle and all of the wrong he'd done to her so he could be a good lover. He owed her at least that, he knew. If he wasn't ready to tell her the truth, he'd at least be a decent boyfriend for the time being.

[Justine Manson]

Justine smiled as he leaned forward and kissed her. "I want to, I'm sure of it"she said inbetween kisses. Justine ran her up her are stopping at,his bicep , her other hand went to the hem of his shirt . She took his shirt off before taking off her own. She moved her lips from his and brought them down his neck, to his collar bone, and started to kiss him down his chest. When she got to his belt she brought herself back up to his mouth with a tiny smiling knowing she was most likely teasing him. She let hers hands go down to his pants.and worked off his pants, then took off her own so they were both just In their undergarments.

She crawled ontop of him and continued kissing him. She brought her lips to his neck and sucked on it long enough to leave a nice satisfying red mark. It wasn't long before she let him take control.

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