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Post by declan on Jun 21, 2013 1:10:43 GMT -5
Declan knew that at some point he was going to have to tell Justine about Cayle. It had been eating him up since the very beginning, and now he finally realized that it had just gotten too far. He was with his boyfriend every weekend, and his girlfriend during the week. It just wasn't okay, and he couldn't continue living a lie.
"Justine...we need to talk," He let go of her hand and pulled her to the side of the crowded hallway. This was never how he meant for it to happen, but he just couldn't handle it anymore.
He sighed. "Look...You know I really care about you, right?" He waited for her response, and then continued talking. "Well...that's never going to change but...I think we should stop seeing each other."
This felt like the kind of break ups you see in movies, with the lame lines and everything, but at least he hadn't asked to continue being friends.
"I think you're so amazing, but I just...I don't deserve you. You're such a great person, and I can't..." He looked down. "I can't hurt you anymore. I'm so sorry, Justine. I hope...I hope you can forgive me, even though I don't deserve it."
He looked back up at her, waiting for her response. He knew that he should probably tell her about his secret, but wasn't breaking up with her enough? Did he really need to hurt her anymore? He didn't think so.
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Post by Justine Manson on Jun 21, 2013 1:53:59 GMT -5
Justine followed him to the side of the hallway looking at him. She nodded when he asked if she knew he cared about her. Of course he did, she knew for a fact he did. He had been nothing but caring. Even after the whole week or two after the shooting he stayed with her comforting her and making her feel better.
Justine blinked and stood there not knowing how to respond when he said they should stop seeing each other. The only thing she felt was her heart drop to her stomach. "You're breaking up with me?" She felt her eyes getting watery and she looked down at the ground as he continued talking.
She stepped towards him when he started saying he didn't deserve her and he was hurting her. She placed her hand on his arm looking up at him. "Declan what are you even talking about? You aren't hurting me! I'm happier then I've ever been with you right now... I-" she stopped herself and moved her hand from his arm.
She bit her bottom lip thinking of what to say. "How can you say you don't deserve me? You've been better to me then i have been to you... And, Declan please... Please don't break up with me. You're perfect and you aren't hurting me." She felt her hot salty tears run down her cheeks as she looked up at him.
She didn't understand what he was even talking about. Hurting her? He hasn't hurt her until now! She wiped her cheeks and looked down at the ground. "Why? Why are you breaking up with me? What did I do? What happened? I thought..." She looked around and kids in the hallway were staring as they saw she was crying.
"I thought you were happy. You seemed happy anyways..." She started to stutter as she was talking because she was actually letting it soak in that he was breaking up with her.
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Post by declan on Jun 24, 2013 14:50:51 GMT -5
Declan did not want to make Justine cry. Out of all the things he'd wanted her to slap him, yell at him, something! But not cry!
"No, No...Jay," He sighed, pulling her in for a hug. He knew he shouldn't be hugging her, he had no right to even touch her. He'd been sleeping with her and another guy at the same time. He didn't deserve to even look at her. He was absolute scum.
He pulled away, "I'm so sorry, Justine. I think you're so amazing I just..." He sighed again and looked down. "There's someone else." He figured it was easier to at least kind of tell her the truth. There was someone else. They were just...Already together. And they had a penis.
"It's not you, okay? It's nothing to do with you. I just...I need to...follow my heart?" That didn't even sound convincing to him, but he went with it anyway.
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Post by Justine Manson on Jun 24, 2013 15:17:03 GMT -5
Justine stood still when he pulled her in for a hug letting him wrap his arms around her. When he looked away she wiped her eyes and listened to what he had to say. When he said there was someone else, she just looked at him and could feel anger going through her body. And when he said he needed to follow his heart...? That's when she finally let out a dry pathetic laugh. "Follow your heart? You're fucking pathetic." She stood there and crossed her arms over his chest.
"I'm so amazing and you're so sorry ? There's someone else ? You don't give two shits about be do you? God. And to think..." Justine was about to say something about him taking her virginity and that's when her eyes started getting watery again. She let him take her virginity and here he is a month later saying there's someone else. "You took my virginity you fucking asshole!" She pushed him away from her when she realized how close there were still standing.
She didn't want to be near him. She didn't even want to be standing here having this conversation. She felt so stupid and pathetic. And she couldn't believe she actually was in a relationship with him while he was thinking about someone else. And those thoughts right there was when she started to actually cry instead of having just tears coming from her eyes. She actually started to full on cry. "Who?" She let out in a cry/breath. "Who is the other person?"She asked looking up from the ground into his eyes
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