Eaine - Forever

[Elliot Gates]

Elliot's heart was racing and he was sure that he could die from all the nerves that were pulsating throughout his body. He was surprised that Raine had let him take her away from the dance so easily, especially after what was happening -whatever was happening- with Danny and Jett. He had his car already in the parking lot because he had thought everything through.

Once they arrived at the Hilton hotel, Elliot opened Raine's door and offered her his arm. "When we get outside the door, I want you to close your eyes, okay?" He lead the way inside, up the elevator, and right to the room he had booked for his special occasion. "Turn around and wait here. I'll be right back." Elliot kissed her lips and walked inside to get everything set up. He was quick to light all of the candles and get the violinist ready as well. When everything was perfect, he went to get Raine.

"Okay, you have to close your eyes and follow my voice." Elliot lead her by the finger tips. Upon entering, the sweet sound of the violin begun. The room was dim and went well with the candle light and scent of fresh rose petals. "Okay, open."

{the violinist leaves after she sees everything. xD }

[Raine Gregory]

Raine wasn't planned on leaving homecoming until she was confident that Jett was safe from that away Danny person but then Elliot was so sweet when he told her that he wanted her to come with him and she melted at the thought of the romantic things that awaited her. She felt like she was finally getting her prince charming back and she loved every second of it. She was mildly concerned when he told her to wait for him but she wasn't going to say anything. What could he possibly have behind that door? Her heart was pounding as she thought of the horrible things that he could be doing to himself in that room. She was concerned that he wasn't going to be coming back and she was suppose to hear a shot and then know to come in and watch him die. What if he wanted to ruin her night? What if he was angry at her for the sleepless nights that she had caused him with her damn nightmares?

She gasped when she walked into the hotel room and saw his surprise for her, "Oh my God, Elliot." She felt hot happy tears rushing to her eyes and she felt guilty for being so damn emotional all of the time. Why couldn't she be this extremely happy without tearing up? She felt like butterflies were fluttering in her stomach and her heart was exploding with happiness. How did she manage to get so lucky? How in the world had she met someone who could pull something this sweet and pure off? Sure some people would assume that he was doing this to get himself laid but she knew when she walked in and heard the violin playing that he had given this a lot of thought. "Oh my God." She'd already said it once but that just didn't seem like it was enough. She was just too shocked to form actual thoughts!

Love had turned her brain into absolute mush and she didn't even mind. "Oh Elliot..." She mused softly as she reached for him and wrapped her arms around his neck, "I love you and this is perfect." Everything smelled like roses and it was completely perfect. "How did you.... How do you always manage to do exactly the right thing to make me feel like a queen?" She wasn't even thinking about Danny and Jett.

[Elliot Gates]

Elliot smiled at Raine's reaction from his surprise. Everything was perfect and beautiful. It was even more magical than what Ashley had done for him, it wasn't even the same league. Elliot nodded for the violinist to leave, which he did without a peep. He let Raine take everything in, because he honestly hadn't even taken the time himself to look at how amazing it turned out.

Elliot flipped the lights completely off but there was still plenty of light coming from the candles that coated the bedroom. "Come," He smiled after a short time as he pulled Raine to the bed. He hoped she couldn't feel how badly he was shaking when he picked her up and laid her down. It wasn't because she was heavy or anything, it was just because he was nervous about this whole situation.

"Raine?" He asked. Elliot crawled onto the bed and sat Indian-style in front of her. "I know that I haven't really been myself, but.. But I want to show you how much I care. I want to show you how much I love you." He hoped she was catching his drift by now. "This is really special to me, and I want to do it right because you deserve the best." He bit his lip before he leaned into her, placing his lips on hers. If she wanted him to be her first, he was finally okay with it.

[Raine Gregory]

Raine felt her nerves growing when Elliot laid her on the bed... Was this really happening? Was she going to lose her virginity to Elliot? What if it hurt? What if she cried? She had heard some pretty awful things about people losing their virginities and she honestly wasn't excited for the pain but what if it felt good? What if she felt more complete and whole than she ever had in her entire life? "Elliot..." She murmured before she moved closer to him and closed the gap between them. She wasn't kissing him with the expected desperation. She was so scared that her heart was racing and she was shaking but she knew that she was ready for this despite all of the thoughts rushing to her head at once. She brought him down so he was on top of her and she let her body do the talking as a leg wrapped around his waist.

She knew that she couldn't possibly go through with this if he didn't have the proper protection because she had a bright future ahead of her filled with Julliard and dancing and she just didn't know if she ever even wanted to have children so she definitely didn't plan on starting a family with him during her junior year. She was really getting into this kiss though and her hands had slipped away from his neck and were now fiddling desperately with the zipper to his pants. It was such an easy task but her hands were shaking so much that she couldn't seem to get it.

She had never been this nervous or excited in her entire life about anything not even before a big performance! "Elliot.... Do you... Do you have a condom? Because I'm ready and I'm scared that it's going to hurt but I'm not scared that it's a mistake because you're my soul mate and I want you to be my first and only sexual partner... I love you and you make me happy and I feel butterflies right now and I'm shaking but I am so excited and I'm really ready."

[Elliot Gates]

She seemed almost a nervous as he was, if not more. He guessed more. Elliot let her pull him on her and wrap her leg around him. The feeling sent a chill up his spine as he returned her kiss. He blushed hard in the dim lit room as she struggled with his pants. He wasn't even worried about rushing to take their clothes off because he wanted this to be sweet and gentle.. like how he normally was.

"Raine," He said as he broke their kiss. His shaky arms were barely holding him up at the moment, but he was depending on their support for the rest of the night. He let Raine tell him about her worries as he played with the end of her hair. He reached for the nightstand next to the bed and pulled out a new box of condoms that he had bought the day before. He showed it to her and raised his brows. "Shut up and kiss me, you muppet." Elliot laughed and kissed her lips and then moved to Raine's neck.

He leaned Raine up so that he could undo her dress. It was even prettier than the one she was wearing the other night and he felt bad taking it off. The candles had dimmed down a shade or two as their wicks were getting shorter with every passing minute. "Raine, are... are you sure?" Elliot asked, his face centimeters from hers. When she nodded at him, he mustered up what courage he had left and sat up to start to unbutton his shirt.

He was so nervous that he was fumbling around with them. It wasn't like he'd never done this before, so he guessed everything was coming from the fact that he had never done this with anyone else, especially now that he had found someone that he loved ten times more than Ashley. Elliot slid his shirt off and let it fall on the floor. He was so nervous about even the thought of taking his pants off right now. "If it helps any, I'm nervous as fuck right now." He laughed and felt some ease set in. Actually, it helped him a lot to relax.

He figured he had made her wait long enough, and he slid her dress from her body. He swallowed hard, shook his pants from his own and grabbed the box from the nightstand. As he prepared himself, he could feel his breathing already start to get shallow. His nerves set back in as he returned to Raine. Elliot kissed her delicate jawline and said, just above a whisper, "I'll be gentle... I promise."

[Raine Gregory]

Raine's heart was pounding so hard in her chest when he took her dress off of her that she was sure that he could actually hear it. She was screaming with fright internally and she honestly didn't know if she was going to be able to make it through this without having some sort of heart attack. Her nerves were only growing as he took off his own pants. What if it hurt? What if this ruined her views on sex? Or worse, what if going from a non-sexual couple to a sexual one ruined the relationship? She loved his sweet gestures but what if they stopped once he knew he would be getting laid anyway? "Please... please be gentle." She was speaking so quietly that she wasn't sure if he could even hear her - she hoped he didn't.

She closed her eyes so she wouldn't risk seeing his penis because that was the last thing that she wanted to happen. She wasn't scared of it as much as she just didn't want to realize how large that he possibly was. She heard him reach for the box of condoms and she honestly feared that she was going to have a panic attack. "Elliot...." She felt like her heart was about to burst out of her chest! She knew that she was ready to take this very large step in their relationship but she still felt the natural worries. Would he still love her if she put out sexually or was he with her because he had some sort of twisted virgin fetish?

She knew logically that he loved her and wanted her to be happy but she was still so scared. She knew that if her parents found out then they would be disappointed beyond belief but she didn't care. She didn't care if her parents objected or if Danny was off sexually assaulting Jett somewhere because she was unbelievably happy right now and scared... honestly she was a conflicted amount of emotions right now. She let out a small sigh and nodded slowly when he promised that he would be gentle.

It'd been months of waiting and anticipating this moment yet she found herself unprepared for the big moment when he actually did slip inside of her body even if it was just a little bit and gently as he promised. "Elliot!" She whimpered out as she fought the urge to pull away from him and end this horrible torture. "Please...." She felt hot tears in her eyes and she was having trouble catching her breath. "Tell me that you love me... tell me you love me ..." She felt so pathetic begging him to say that he loved her but she needed to hear it now more than ever. She was literally a ball of tense nerves. How could she enjoy losing her virginity if she couldn't relax? She needed him to tell her that he was madly in love with her and wipe away the waterfall of tears falling from her eyes.

She was so scared that he wasn't going to say it and he was going to leave her pathetic and begging for him to utter those words as he thrust into her body with no regard for the pain that she was feeling. -You can skip now... XD I promise she starts enjoying it-

[Elliot Gates]

Elliot had started to relax, but she hadn't. If anything, she had only gotten more anxious which made him feel like he had to be extra careful. He knew how delicate virginity was and to him, it was something you shared with the person you love. Like penguins; they mate for life, and they were penguins in each other's eyes so that had to mean something.

He stopped when she painfully called out his name. He was honestly scared to death that he was hurting her and almost wanted to stop. He could see the tiniest tears starting to run down her cheeks and he was kick to wipe them away. She shouldn't be crying, should she? Maybe she was having second thoughts and didn't want to do this anymore but was scared to tell him. "Are you okay? I.. I didn't hurt you, did I? Do you want me to stop?" When she nodded no, he kissed where her tears had been, "Raine, I love you. I love you so much." He was trying her best to make sure she felt secure and safe with him.

After he gave her a moment, Elliot presumed. "Are you okay? Tell me if you need me to stop.." He whispered.



{yeah, sure. skip. xDD }

[Raine Gregory]

Raine knew that she needed to relax her mind and body or she was never going to enjoy making love to her boyfriend but it was like her body refused her. She finally managed to calm her heart rate and nodded at him that it was okay if he continued. They were penguins - they were happy loving penguins and she could get through this if she just let her body take over and shut off her brain. She half expected that he would have stopped and pulled out immediately after she got use to the feelings because well.. who cares if she gets off if he does?

-Skip-

She was pleasantly surprised to say that they both ended up enjoying the sex and even finished in unison which she didn't think happened anywhere except the movies and in romantic fiction. She was also surprised by the rush of emotions that she felt following the sex where she couldn't contain her tears for one second so she found herself burying her head into his bare chest and weeping softly as she muttered how much that she loved him and how perfect that this night was. Why was she always so emotional? Couldn't she ever do anything without bursting into tears? Maybe it was just because it was her first time and this wouldn't happen in the times to follow.

She kept a death grip on his body in fear of him attempting to get up, pull his clothes on and leave her alone in this beautiful hotel room. "Please don't go.. Please don't go..." She whimpered suddenly as she tightened her hold so much that it actually hurt her so it had to hurt him too, right? But she couldn't bring herself to let go and risk him just walking away. What if she had disappointed him and it wasn't as good as he had thought that it would be? What if she didn't compare to Ashley?

[Elliot Gates]

It was like something from a romantic love novel. Everything. The whole night, even before the hotel at homecoming was perfect. Raine and her dress, Elliot and his suit, the roses, the violin, the sweetness of their over all experience. It was mind blowing, that's the only way Elliot could think of to put it.

He rolled onto his back and grabbed his shirt from the floor to clean up the area. He didn't think about it until after it was already done, but now he would have to leave without a shirt when they did leave. Elliot scooted over and wrapped Raine up in his warm embrace. His arms were still lightly trembling but at least he was catching his breath.

Raine's grip on his body was starting to get rather painful, but he didn't really mind. "I'm not going anywhere, love." Elliot smiled as he played with her hair. He felt as if he was in a state of euphoria, especially now that he had an overwhelming feeling to be close to her. He was happy that she didn't want to move from this spot. He readjusted his head and turned to Raine. "Are you all right?" He asked.

[Raine Gregory]

Raine raised a curious brow when he asked her if she was alright; How could she be anything less than perfect when they had just made love for the first time? She felt so much closer to him than she ever believed possible and it was slightly overwhelming. "You...." She didn't really know where she was going with that so she just stayed quiet for a long moment because no words needed to be said for her to feel completely at ease with her boyfriend. She had never been this happy or complete in her entire life. She felt like she was finally getting what she wanted most in the world except.. She couldn't call Jett and tell him how happy that she was or how perfect that Elliot had done this because he was probably mad at her for her little comments about Danny. She loved Estelle like a lesbian lover but it was different with Jett - he was a guy and he could give her a guy's opinion on things and she trusted that about him. She didn't know how she was going to handle things if she ended up losing him as a best friend.

"Do you think I was too hard on Danny at homecoming?" She didn't want to spoil the mood by talking about that asshole but she knew that this was something they needed to discuss at some point. "I mean.. I don't hate him because he's gay or because I'm secretly in love with Jett but... Maybe.. I don't know... You know Esme? Well obviously.. Apparently she use to have a thing for Danny like a really big thing. I remember it because she would always tell me how he made her blush and how she giggled whenever he talked and just... It was adorable and I wonder if he's going to crush Jett the same way that he did her..." She sighed and adjusted herself in his arms so she could look at him, "But that's not why I hate him... And I can't lie to you like I'm doing to myself."

She cleared her throat and strugglied to think of a way to expression how she as feeling. "I hate him because he's so open about how he tried to kill himself and .... I hate him because I feel like I'll never be as happy as he is. I feel like if I don't kill myself then I still won't be as happy as he is and that scares me because I go from being fine to wanting to slice open my wrists and I am so jealous of him for overcoming something that I can't.. I'm jealous of both of you and I don't.. I don't understand how to make myself better and I don't know how to accept my depression and... I'm not eating again."[/size]